Giving up already?

As much as it pains me to write this post, even I have to admit defeat sometimes. It's been a long, beautiful love affair but all things must eventually come to an end. Yes, blog readers, as of today am I giving up my high heels. I really didn't think that it would end this soon but I had a little "a-ha" moment today that led me to this decision.

The decision started with the fact that I am running out of pants to wear. I am pretty sure I've worn my size 4 black work pants for the last time. Even with the Bella Band they are getting way too uncomfortable. That leaves me with two pairs of work pants that I can still get into semi-comfortably. I am able to wear jeans to work and, thankfully, I am still in almost all my jeans. But, being a supervisor and having to go to meetings with people more important than me, I try not to wear jeans that often. You know the saying, dress for the job you want... not the one you've got. And it's been too cold here to wear dresses. I am begging for the weather to change so I can wear my super comfy empire waist dresses to work.

When I found out I was pregnant I had just cleaned out my closet and had a bag of clothes that no longer fit me set aside to go to charity. I decided to keep the clothes and use them as I grew. Well, one of the problems is that I'm growing in my belly and not really anywhere else. So, while the pants fit me at the waist, the legs and butt are huge. And all the pants are hemmed for my super high heels. I have several pairs in the 4-4.5" range.

But, being that it is STILL cold out and I've run out of clothing options, I turned to the bag today and pulled out a pair of work pants that required a pair of 4.5" heels. Now wearing heels isn't usually that big of a deal because I sit at a desk for the majority of the day. However today I had to attend a meeting at another building that is around 1/4 of a mile walk. I usually really enjoy the walk to the other building, even in heels, because it's nice to be outside and get some exercise and fresh air but today it just wasn't comfortable.

By the time I got to the meeting I was having some pain and cramping in my lower back. It calmed down a little during the meeting and I took the shuttle bus on the way back but it was still bothering me when I got back to the office. I called the nurse who essentially told me that aches and pains are normal and, I swear, I could hear the eye roll in her voice when she asked if this was my first baby. Yes I understand aches and pains are normal but I just wanted to be sure. I decided to take the afternoon off anyway so I could come home and rest and relax. I feel a little guilty about using my vacation time because I'm trying to hoard it for when baby comes but I feel like I needed it today.

So, for now, it's time to say goodbye to the super high heels. I'll still wear my lower heels but the highest of the high will have to stay on the shelf for now. I guess I need to invest in some flats and some shorter hem pants. I really didn't expect it this early but I guess I'd better get used to the changes!