Well, my ten year reunion has come and gone. I stood by my choice to not attend as did my closest girlfriends. I really just could not come up with a reason I wanted to go. I still talk to my closest friends from high school and I dive behind displays at Wal-Mart to avoid classmates I don't want to see. So why would I now dress up and pretend like I care what's been going on with these people that I haven't talked to in ten years? I just couldn't come up with any good reason. But curiosity got the best of me and I peeked (ok, studied) the pictures that were posted by the reunion committee.
It's amazing how much you forget in ten years. There were people in the pictures that I wouldn't recognize if they were standing right in front of me. There were other people that I recognized right away but couldn't, for the life of me, come up with a name for the face. Then there were others that I knew for sure but that had just changed a little over the years. Almost everyone was little rounder, some of the guys had less hair, some of the girls had bigger boobs and they were all together partying it up. It looked really weird. I guess I just don't get it. How can you go from not talking or seeing someone for ten years and then all of a sudden be hanging out at a bar with them like no time had past?
The reunion was a weekend-long event so there was a party at a bar on Friday, a cocktail party on Saturday and a family day on Sunday where everyone brought their kids. The kids thing really got to me. It really amazed me to see how many of my classmates have children (plural). Some people had like 3 kids! It doesn't seem possible that someone my age can have that many kids already. It made me kind of sad and jealous too. I want kids that I can pose in pictures with and that I can bring to family picnics. One of my former classmates was really cute and pregnant and that made me sad. I think about my pregnancy but it seems like it was a dream or that I imagined the whole thing. I just wish that I was still pregnant.
Even after seeing the pictures, I'm glad I didn't go. I have no idea what I would've said to the people that were there. I'm married, have two dogs, process mortgage loans, and have a house in Titusville. What do you say for the rest of the weekend? Maybe in ten more years I'll feel the need to talk to these people again. Until then, I'm sure I'll keep up my routine of hiding behind things when I see people I used to know.
** Check out the family album for updated pictures**
Thursday, June 28, 2007
Saturday, June 23, 2007
Ode to Shoes
This post is dedicated to my newest and most awesome new shoes. It's also a tribute to my new theme song (and ring tone). Enjoy "New Shoes" by Paolo Nutini!
Woke up cold one Tuesday,
I'm looking tired and feeling quite sick,
I felt like there was something missing in my day to day life,
So i quickly opened the wardrobe, Pulled out some jeans and a T-Shirt that seemed clean, Topped it off with a pair of old shoes,
That were ripped around the seams,
That were ripped around the seams,
And i thought these shoes just don't suit me.
[CHORUS:]Hey, I put some new shoes on, And suddenly everything is right,
I said, hey, I put some new shoes on and every body's smiling,
It's so inviting,
Oh, short on money,
But long on time,
Slowly strolling in the sweet sunshine,
And I'm running late, And i don't need an excuse,
'cause I'm wearing my brand new shoes.
Woke up late one Thursday,
And I'm seeing stars as I'm rubbing my eyes,
And i felt like there were two days missing,
As i focused all the time,
And i made my way to the kitchen,
But i had to stop from the shock of what i found,
A room full of all my friends dancing round and round,
And i thought hello new shoes, Bye bye them blues.
[CHORUS] Hey, I put some new shoes on, And suddenly everything is right,
I said, hey, I put some new shoes on and every body's smiling,
It's so inviting,
Oh, short on money,
But long on time,
Slowly strolling in the sweet sunshine,
And I'm running late, And I don't need an excuse,
'cause I'm wearing my brand new shoes.
Take me wondering through these streets,
Where bright lights and angels meet,
Stone to stone they take me on,
I'm walking to the break of dawn.
[x2][CHORUS (x2)]
Take me wondering through these streets
Friday, June 22, 2007
The Mother of All Colds
Uuuuuggggghhhhh!! Let me start by saying, I hate being sick! I'm not good at it but, thankfully, I don't get sick often. But, when it gets me, it gets me good! I don't think I've been this sick since 2nd grade, in Mrs. Gordon's class when I had Bronchitis. I've caught the horrible, awful, no good, very bad cold that has been passed around throughout my family. Joe started getting sick on Monday night and by Tuesday, I was already sick.
It started with vomit (gross, I know), then turned into terrible body aches. I'm talking every bit of my body ached, even my teeth. I felt like I had been run over by a car. I went back and forth from shivers to burning up and slept away pretty much the whole day Wednesday. Thursday I woke up, still feeling not so good but figured I could tough it out and go to work. Bad idea. On my drive to work I was already regretting my decision. I lasted until about 11:00 before I decided to head home. The body aches stopped yesterday but my head was still very heavy and very congested and my neck muscles were very sore. I was able to keep food down so that was good. Actually, the silver lining here is that I've lost 3 pounds. Not really the most glamorous way to lose weight but is there really a glamorous way to lose weight?
Pushing myself to try to feel better really backfired on me. Last night I started feeling awful again. I was nauseous, had a fever and chills, body aches, a terrible headache, and a stuffy nose so stuffy it kept me awake. I was also very hungry but afraid to eat anything because of the nausea. I couldn't sleep, I was tossing and turning trying to find the most comfortable position that still allowed me to breathe through my nose. I am terribly afraid to sleep with my mouth open. I'm afraid bugs will crawl in while I sleep and I'll swallow them. Irrational, maybe, but a fear nonetheless. I finally got out of bed and started a search for anything in my house that would make me feel better. My search of the medicine cabinets turned up nothing. Some leftover fertility drugs, some Pepcid and Tums, Tylenol, and some band aids. I did look twice at some ear medication for the dogs but decided it probably wouldn't work for me.
I finally decided that the only thing that would make me feel better was Oreos and milk. So, I was up until 2am eating Oreos and watching That 70's Show. So much for the 3 pounds I lost, right?! I did finally get to sleep and I slept ok. I woke up this morning and feel a little better but I'm definitely not going to push it. I'm going to take today and really rest. My body needs it.
This cold is really putting a damper on my weekend plans too. I was supposed to go to Jacksonville to see Lindsey and the baby but I don't want to put either of them at risk of catching this cold. I'm so sad because I really want to see them both. Hopefully I'll be able to make it up next weekend.
Anyway, I hope you all are out there having very happy and very HEALTHY days! I hope to be back to healthy myself very soon!
It started with vomit (gross, I know), then turned into terrible body aches. I'm talking every bit of my body ached, even my teeth. I felt like I had been run over by a car. I went back and forth from shivers to burning up and slept away pretty much the whole day Wednesday. Thursday I woke up, still feeling not so good but figured I could tough it out and go to work. Bad idea. On my drive to work I was already regretting my decision. I lasted until about 11:00 before I decided to head home. The body aches stopped yesterday but my head was still very heavy and very congested and my neck muscles were very sore. I was able to keep food down so that was good. Actually, the silver lining here is that I've lost 3 pounds. Not really the most glamorous way to lose weight but is there really a glamorous way to lose weight?
Pushing myself to try to feel better really backfired on me. Last night I started feeling awful again. I was nauseous, had a fever and chills, body aches, a terrible headache, and a stuffy nose so stuffy it kept me awake. I was also very hungry but afraid to eat anything because of the nausea. I couldn't sleep, I was tossing and turning trying to find the most comfortable position that still allowed me to breathe through my nose. I am terribly afraid to sleep with my mouth open. I'm afraid bugs will crawl in while I sleep and I'll swallow them. Irrational, maybe, but a fear nonetheless. I finally got out of bed and started a search for anything in my house that would make me feel better. My search of the medicine cabinets turned up nothing. Some leftover fertility drugs, some Pepcid and Tums, Tylenol, and some band aids. I did look twice at some ear medication for the dogs but decided it probably wouldn't work for me.
I finally decided that the only thing that would make me feel better was Oreos and milk. So, I was up until 2am eating Oreos and watching That 70's Show. So much for the 3 pounds I lost, right?! I did finally get to sleep and I slept ok. I woke up this morning and feel a little better but I'm definitely not going to push it. I'm going to take today and really rest. My body needs it.
This cold is really putting a damper on my weekend plans too. I was supposed to go to Jacksonville to see Lindsey and the baby but I don't want to put either of them at risk of catching this cold. I'm so sad because I really want to see them both. Hopefully I'll be able to make it up next weekend.
Anyway, I hope you all are out there having very happy and very HEALTHY days! I hope to be back to healthy myself very soon!
Monday, June 18, 2007
When I grow up...
I think I'm in the midst of a mid-work-life crisis. It really should be no surprise to anyone that knows me that I'm not fond of my job. But, it's not really my current job because I've never really loved ANY job that I've done. My whole working life I have had a job just to pay the bills. Well I'm tired of it! I long for a job that I love. Not just a JOB but a passion, an obsession, a career, an office with pink walls and a dark mahogany desk where I can sit and let my creativity pour out of me!
But, in search of this great career I keep imagining, all I know is how I want to decorate my office and what I want to wear to work. I can't really picture what I want to do. Actually, I can picture myself doing lots of things, I just can't narrow it down to the one I like the best. I've thought of wedding/party planner, an all cupcake bakery, a desert shoppe, an upscale doggy boutique... the list seriously goes on from there. Those are my top 4 fantasy jobs though. The problem with all of these fantasies is that they involve me being self-employed. Being self-employed scares the crap out of me.
I've always been a responsible girl. I work hard, I pay my bills, I make sure my dogs are fed and well taken care of, I change my oil on a regular basis, I bought a house and have a mortgage and car payments and insurance payments and student loan bills... A job is a necessity in my life. I can't be without my paycheck. That's why being self-employed scares me. I'm terribly afraid of failure. I'm afraid that if my dream doesn't work out as planned that not only will I lose everything that I've worked for but so will Joe.
I'm reading a book right now, "How To Be Like Walt". It's a story about Walt Disney and how he achieved what he did. I'm only on Chapter 3 and I'm already amazed at this man's life. The guy was broke, had no shoes, was eating cold beans out of a can for dinner and still managed to be optimistic about what he was trying to achieve. Did you hear what I said, NO SHOES! That would've been a deal breaker for me right there! I just don't know where people get their optimism and their determination and their guts. How do you fall flat on your face and lose everything and keep going and keep trying to pursue that dream? I live a much safer life than that.
I've also worked for a couple of people who are self-employed. One thing I've noticed about self-employed people is that they work a lot. I, on the other hand, like to go home at 5:00 and get a little irritated if I get called on the weekend. How could I ever be self-employed?! I think maybe if I enjoyed my job I wouldn't mind working the extra hours. Another thing I've noticed about self-employed people is that they are doing pretty well financially. I'm not saying all self-employed people do well but the ones I've worked for are. Joe and I know that if we continue on this path we are on right now that we'll never be rich people. We could be comfortable but we're not going to be dining with the Rockefeller's any time soon. But, if one of us took a chance and explored our passions, we could have the opportunity to expand our finances. It's just taking the chance.
I said it before and I'll say it again, where do you get the guts to take a chance? How do you not worry about your finances and go out on your own? Where do you get the confidence and optimism to step outside of what you know? If you know how/what/where, let me know because I need it. I need someone to kick me in the ass and say, "Tricia, you're a talented person, get out there and show the world". People have said that to me, but no one has ever kicked me in the ass. I think that's the part that's missing.
I guess for now, I'll go on, merely existing at my current job. Hopefully soon, though, I'll see my true calling and actually step outside of my safety zone and try something new. Maybe someday you'll see me on "Whose Wedding is it Anyway" or some "cutest bakery in America" show sitting behind my mahogany desk, in my pink office, wearing a cute little suit and some super fabulous Jimmy Choos.
Until then my job fantasies live on...
But, in search of this great career I keep imagining, all I know is how I want to decorate my office and what I want to wear to work. I can't really picture what I want to do. Actually, I can picture myself doing lots of things, I just can't narrow it down to the one I like the best. I've thought of wedding/party planner, an all cupcake bakery, a desert shoppe, an upscale doggy boutique... the list seriously goes on from there. Those are my top 4 fantasy jobs though. The problem with all of these fantasies is that they involve me being self-employed. Being self-employed scares the crap out of me.
I've always been a responsible girl. I work hard, I pay my bills, I make sure my dogs are fed and well taken care of, I change my oil on a regular basis, I bought a house and have a mortgage and car payments and insurance payments and student loan bills... A job is a necessity in my life. I can't be without my paycheck. That's why being self-employed scares me. I'm terribly afraid of failure. I'm afraid that if my dream doesn't work out as planned that not only will I lose everything that I've worked for but so will Joe.
I'm reading a book right now, "How To Be Like Walt". It's a story about Walt Disney and how he achieved what he did. I'm only on Chapter 3 and I'm already amazed at this man's life. The guy was broke, had no shoes, was eating cold beans out of a can for dinner and still managed to be optimistic about what he was trying to achieve. Did you hear what I said, NO SHOES! That would've been a deal breaker for me right there! I just don't know where people get their optimism and their determination and their guts. How do you fall flat on your face and lose everything and keep going and keep trying to pursue that dream? I live a much safer life than that.
I've also worked for a couple of people who are self-employed. One thing I've noticed about self-employed people is that they work a lot. I, on the other hand, like to go home at 5:00 and get a little irritated if I get called on the weekend. How could I ever be self-employed?! I think maybe if I enjoyed my job I wouldn't mind working the extra hours. Another thing I've noticed about self-employed people is that they are doing pretty well financially. I'm not saying all self-employed people do well but the ones I've worked for are. Joe and I know that if we continue on this path we are on right now that we'll never be rich people. We could be comfortable but we're not going to be dining with the Rockefeller's any time soon. But, if one of us took a chance and explored our passions, we could have the opportunity to expand our finances. It's just taking the chance.
I said it before and I'll say it again, where do you get the guts to take a chance? How do you not worry about your finances and go out on your own? Where do you get the confidence and optimism to step outside of what you know? If you know how/what/where, let me know because I need it. I need someone to kick me in the ass and say, "Tricia, you're a talented person, get out there and show the world". People have said that to me, but no one has ever kicked me in the ass. I think that's the part that's missing.
I guess for now, I'll go on, merely existing at my current job. Hopefully soon, though, I'll see my true calling and actually step outside of my safety zone and try something new. Maybe someday you'll see me on "Whose Wedding is it Anyway" or some "cutest bakery in America" show sitting behind my mahogany desk, in my pink office, wearing a cute little suit and some super fabulous Jimmy Choos.
Until then my job fantasies live on...
Friday, June 15, 2007
A Princess is Born
She's here!! Beautiful little Peyton Marie arrived last night, June 15th at 1:32 am by c-section. She was scheduled for a c-section at 8am on the 15th but just couldn't wait. Mom, dad, and baby are doing wonderful.
Peyton is gorgeous, as you can see from the pictures (more in the family album) and is very alert. She has been sucking on her hands and looking around. Lindsey is really tired but glad that the baby is finally here.
I hope you all enjoy the pictures, I'll post more as they come in. Talk to you all soon.
Tricia
Peyton is gorgeous, as you can see from the pictures (more in the family album) and is very alert. She has been sucking on her hands and looking around. Lindsey is really tired but glad that the baby is finally here.
I hope you all enjoy the pictures, I'll post more as they come in. Talk to you all soon.
Tricia
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
Tech savvy
Well, I'm working on this blog thing and I think I'm figuring it out. I've added a new element to my page. On the left side of the screen, under the pictures I've added a link to a photo album. It should, if I've done it right, take you to my flickr.com account so you can see the photo album I've created. If anyone wants me to add pictures, email them to me and I'll add them in. I think it'll be fun to keep up with everyone this way. So far the majority of the pictures are of my dogs but they're so cute I'm sure no one will mind.
Anywho... Emily asked me recently about my thoughts on the series finale of Sopranos. Since everyone else in the world is talking about it, I figure I'll add my two cents too. If you don't watch the Sopranos, sorry, you'll just have to skip over this part. So... I just have to say I was completely shocked by the way the show ended. I seriously thought that my cable went out. I was so upset that I was going to miss the ending of the show. Then, to my surprise, the credits started rolling! How frustrating! I know there are theories out there that Tony died and we were seeing what happened through his eyes. He looks up to see Meadow coming into the restaurant and is distracted by that so he doesn't realize the weird guy in the Member's Only jacket has come out of the bathroom to shoot him. He gets shot, and his world goes black. I'm not so sure about this theory. Maybe because I don't want Tony to die. I know he's a big jerk but he does have some endearing qualities (like his love for animals). I think that nothing happens. The family just goes on to live their crazy, dysfunctional life. My way may be boring but until we know otherwise, I'm sticking to it. It'll be interesting to see if they put the alternate endings on the DVD. I'd like to see what else they came up with.
I'm so excited about this upcoming week. We'll find out this week when Lindsey is going to have little Peyton! She's supposed to go to the doctor on Thursday and they're probably going to schedule her for a c-section on Monday or Tuesday of next week! It's so exciting that we're getting a new, little family member so soon. I can't wait to meet Peyton. I think she's going to be adorable!
Other than that, there isn't much going on here. Joe is still gone so I'm hanging out with the girls. If you look at the family album you'll see our most recent photo shoot. Sure, I'm obsessed but I have so much fun playing with the dogs that I can't help taking pictures of them and their funny moments.
Anyway, it's 8:00 and I haven't had dinner yet so I think I need to go find something. It didn't take me long to fall into a single-girl's eating habits. With no husband around, I don't have to worry about making sure the family eats. Speaking of single girl stuff, Kathy Griffin My Life on the D List comes on tonight and I'm super-psyched about that! If you don't watch it, you should, she's freaking hilarious. Joe took me to see her when she came to Melbourne. I love her, she says all the things that other people are too afraid to say. Maybe I'll heat up a frozen pizza, slap on a pore reducing mask and watch Kathy Griffin. Hey, I only get to be single for a couple more days! It may not be cocktails and high heels glamorous, but I'll take what I can get.
Anywho... Emily asked me recently about my thoughts on the series finale of Sopranos. Since everyone else in the world is talking about it, I figure I'll add my two cents too. If you don't watch the Sopranos, sorry, you'll just have to skip over this part. So... I just have to say I was completely shocked by the way the show ended. I seriously thought that my cable went out. I was so upset that I was going to miss the ending of the show. Then, to my surprise, the credits started rolling! How frustrating! I know there are theories out there that Tony died and we were seeing what happened through his eyes. He looks up to see Meadow coming into the restaurant and is distracted by that so he doesn't realize the weird guy in the Member's Only jacket has come out of the bathroom to shoot him. He gets shot, and his world goes black. I'm not so sure about this theory. Maybe because I don't want Tony to die. I know he's a big jerk but he does have some endearing qualities (like his love for animals). I think that nothing happens. The family just goes on to live their crazy, dysfunctional life. My way may be boring but until we know otherwise, I'm sticking to it. It'll be interesting to see if they put the alternate endings on the DVD. I'd like to see what else they came up with.
I'm so excited about this upcoming week. We'll find out this week when Lindsey is going to have little Peyton! She's supposed to go to the doctor on Thursday and they're probably going to schedule her for a c-section on Monday or Tuesday of next week! It's so exciting that we're getting a new, little family member so soon. I can't wait to meet Peyton. I think she's going to be adorable!
Other than that, there isn't much going on here. Joe is still gone so I'm hanging out with the girls. If you look at the family album you'll see our most recent photo shoot. Sure, I'm obsessed but I have so much fun playing with the dogs that I can't help taking pictures of them and their funny moments.
Anyway, it's 8:00 and I haven't had dinner yet so I think I need to go find something. It didn't take me long to fall into a single-girl's eating habits. With no husband around, I don't have to worry about making sure the family eats. Speaking of single girl stuff, Kathy Griffin My Life on the D List comes on tonight and I'm super-psyched about that! If you don't watch it, you should, she's freaking hilarious. Joe took me to see her when she came to Melbourne. I love her, she says all the things that other people are too afraid to say. Maybe I'll heat up a frozen pizza, slap on a pore reducing mask and watch Kathy Griffin. Hey, I only get to be single for a couple more days! It may not be cocktails and high heels glamorous, but I'll take what I can get.
Sunday, June 10, 2007
All by myself
Well, Joe is off again. He's enroute to Iowa as I type. Actually, he may still be sitting on the runway, delayed by bad weather. His flight was supposed to leave at 5:30 but at 6:30 he called me from the runway where they were sitting waiting to take off. But, I'm sure he'll make it out of Orlando eventually.
I have a whole week by myself! Actually, me and the pups, but still. I don't get much talking out of them. The conversations are pretty much one-sided. I don't know what to do with myself. It is a fun time for TV though. I get to watch all the girly shows that I normally DVR and watch when Joe's not around. Bonus, I don't have to watch any "World's Scariest Police Chases/Prison Riots/Bank Robberies/Shoot Outs". It's amazing how many of those shows are out there and how often Joe wants to watch them.
I had a nice weekend though. Friday night we watched the shuttle launch from Mr. and Mrs. Sego's (Joe's boss) dock. It was beautiful. It is the closest I've been to a shuttle launch and I love it. Their dock is in the Indian River pretty much directly across from the launch pad. It was great, I felt like a VIP. Saturday we went to breakfast and to WalMart then hung out in the pool for most of the day. The weather is hot but so nice for the pool. We grilled out some hot dogs and played fetch with the girls. Later on, we went to TGIFridays for some appetizers and a couple of drinks. Today we cleaned and got Joe ready for his trip. I went to my mom and dad's for dinner and to see sweet little Pierce. He's the cutest! We took a nice walk with his stroller but he slept for most of it. Now I'm just winding down for the night waiting for Sopranos to come on.
Anyway, I guess that's all for now. I really need to come up with some more interesting stuff to blog about. I may have to go back to my old Sex and the City quote blogs. Some of you may remember those from my days on MySpace. Oh, and for anyone wondering why I chose the name I chose for my blog address, there is a good reason. Obviously, It's a Sex and the City rip off but, more importantly, it's the answer that I'm giving to anyone who asks if we'll try again to have a baby. Abso-freaking-lutely!
I have a whole week by myself! Actually, me and the pups, but still. I don't get much talking out of them. The conversations are pretty much one-sided. I don't know what to do with myself. It is a fun time for TV though. I get to watch all the girly shows that I normally DVR and watch when Joe's not around. Bonus, I don't have to watch any "World's Scariest Police Chases/Prison Riots/Bank Robberies/Shoot Outs". It's amazing how many of those shows are out there and how often Joe wants to watch them.
I had a nice weekend though. Friday night we watched the shuttle launch from Mr. and Mrs. Sego's (Joe's boss) dock. It was beautiful. It is the closest I've been to a shuttle launch and I love it. Their dock is in the Indian River pretty much directly across from the launch pad. It was great, I felt like a VIP. Saturday we went to breakfast and to WalMart then hung out in the pool for most of the day. The weather is hot but so nice for the pool. We grilled out some hot dogs and played fetch with the girls. Later on, we went to TGIFridays for some appetizers and a couple of drinks. Today we cleaned and got Joe ready for his trip. I went to my mom and dad's for dinner and to see sweet little Pierce. He's the cutest! We took a nice walk with his stroller but he slept for most of it. Now I'm just winding down for the night waiting for Sopranos to come on.
Anyway, I guess that's all for now. I really need to come up with some more interesting stuff to blog about. I may have to go back to my old Sex and the City quote blogs. Some of you may remember those from my days on MySpace. Oh, and for anyone wondering why I chose the name I chose for my blog address, there is a good reason. Obviously, It's a Sex and the City rip off but, more importantly, it's the answer that I'm giving to anyone who asks if we'll try again to have a baby. Abso-freaking-lutely!
Wednesday, June 6, 2007
Starting over
I decided that since I'm not going to be blogging about baby stuff for a while, that the old title of my blog didn't really apply anymore. So, I've changed it. I think that I'm still going to continue to blog because it's kind of fun to share this way. For now I'll just blog about what's going on with me.
I've posted a couple of pictures and I'm trying to figure out how to link to an album. I get so many pictures from the family of the new babies that I think it'll be fun to have a "family album" on the blog so everyone can check in and see the latest pictures. Of course, dogs are included too!
For now, I'm hanging in, counting the days until I can try to get pregnant again. I'm trying to concentrate on my health and fitness. I figure any pounds I can lose before getting pregnant will be a good thing. I'm trying to figure out what to do with the "belly pictures" that we took and the "Belly Book" that I already started filling out. It feels weird to keep them but sucks to throw them away because there are happy memories attached to them. It's really a hard decision. I'm not gonna rush it though, I'll know what to do eventually.
I hope everyone will keep in touch. I hope that we can plan a vacation together very soon!
I've posted a couple of pictures and I'm trying to figure out how to link to an album. I get so many pictures from the family of the new babies that I think it'll be fun to have a "family album" on the blog so everyone can check in and see the latest pictures. Of course, dogs are included too!
For now, I'm hanging in, counting the days until I can try to get pregnant again. I'm trying to concentrate on my health and fitness. I figure any pounds I can lose before getting pregnant will be a good thing. I'm trying to figure out what to do with the "belly pictures" that we took and the "Belly Book" that I already started filling out. It feels weird to keep them but sucks to throw them away because there are happy memories attached to them. It's really a hard decision. I'm not gonna rush it though, I'll know what to do eventually.
I hope everyone will keep in touch. I hope that we can plan a vacation together very soon!
Sunday, June 3, 2007
It's over
I found out through an ultrasound this morning that I'm no longer pregnant. I started bleeding yesterday and the doctor confirmed a miscarriage this morning. My HCG levels are down to 2.9 so it's definitely gone. They couldn't find a yolk sack or anything on the ultrasound so they think my body may have absorbed it.
Obviously Joe and I are pretty upset. But, at least we know now that we can get pregnant. I just thought my problems would be over once we finally conceived. I have to wait two months before trying again so I'm just gonna take it easy and try to enjoy myself for the next couple of months and go from there.
Life really sucks sometimes.
Obviously Joe and I are pretty upset. But, at least we know now that we can get pregnant. I just thought my problems would be over once we finally conceived. I have to wait two months before trying again so I'm just gonna take it easy and try to enjoy myself for the next couple of months and go from there.
Life really sucks sometimes.
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