Dear Evan,

I love rocking you to sleep. My arms wrapped snugly around you, your head in the crook of my elbow, your chubby cheek rested on my upper arm. Our faces are so close. I just stare at you, memorizing every feature of your face. Your round little nose, pink pouty lips, the upside down crescent between your bottom lip and chin, your barely there eyebrows and eyelashes, your fuzzy hair and your perfect smooth skin. When we're rocking the whole world fades away. Its just you and me. You are the light of my life. I love you so much and I want to remember these moments forever.

A month

A month! I can't believe it's been almost a month since I wrote my last entry. I knew I said my posts were going to be fewer and farther between but I had no idea it would be a month. Life has been busy. When Evan finally goes down for a nap there are so many things to get done, blogging comes in almost dead last. My priorities go pumping, going to the bathroom, eating, brushing my teeth/showering, dishes, then me time. Needless to say, I don't make it to the me time very often.

So much has happened in the last month. Evan is growing so quickly. He's getting chubby and has been interacting with us so much more. He smiles all the time and coos and makes noises. He's starting to look at toys and smile at them too. He even rolled over from his belly to his back today! It was during tummy time and he was laying on a whale pillow, which probably gave him an unfair advantage, but he did make it all the way from belly to back. It was so exciting. I didn't have the camera ready but hopefully I'll catch it next time.

The past week has been so busy here. Joe has been working really long, crazy hours, Evan was diagnosed with Thrush and I broke out in hives all over my body. I had an allergic reaction to who knows what- possibly stress, possibly Evan's body wash. It has been a challenge. But Evan and I are both on medication now and seem to be doing better and hopefully Joe's work will slow down a little and things will get less stressful.

Less stressful, just in time for me to go back to work! UGH! My maternity leave is over in two weeks! TWO WEEKS! I can't believe so much time has already gone by. While I'm ready to get back into my work clothes and back into some adult conversations, I am sad I won't get to see Evan all day. I feel very comfortable with his daycare but still worry about leaving him. I'm also worried about our new routine and how we'll handle it. I'm especially worried about dinner time. We can't manage to make dinners now and I'm home all day. I have no idea how we'll find the time once I go back to work. It is especially challenging since we're trying to get back to our low-carb lifestyle. That diet really revolves around grilling and with Joe's long hours combined with the end of daylight savings time, grilling really isn't an option any more. So I'm on the hunt for easy crock pot or oven ready low-carb meals. Not easy!

I'm sure once we get into the swing of things we'll work out a routine that works for us. I guess I've learned that the best thing we can do is just roll with the punches. As we've seen over the last couple of years, we will get through whatever challenges we're faced with! And no matter what those challenges are, looking at Evan's sweet face seems to make it all better.