Sitting still

Whew! What a week! I feel like I've really been neglecting the blog lately. I'm sorry for that. I just have so much going on right now that getting to the computer at night doesn't come easily. For lack of actual inspiration, this will probably be another, "what's been going on" blog. Hopefully I'll have something dazzling to say at some point.

I've officially been given the go-ahead to divulge info about the party I'm planning. My sister Becky is tying the knot. They have about a quatrillion friends so lack of money and lack of time to plan are preventing her from having the standard wedding right now but she and Will are going to the courthouse to make it official. Grown ups have to make grown up decisions some times. But, I didn't feel like it would be right to NOT celebrate something this monumental so I am planning a little dinner party/reception for them. I can't go into too many details here on the blog because she is a loyal follower but I promise I will post all the details and pictures once it's done. And you'd better believe that this party will be fabulous. Trust.

I had a very monumental week in weight loss. I am now down a total of 11 pounds and into a whole new weight loss bracket. And the new bracket is one that I haven't seen for a LONG time. We're talking since I was 19-ish. I am super proud of myself. I am very much looking forward to shopping for new clothes once I hit my goal. This week, however, I will be moving on to a new phase in my 5k training. I repeated week two last week since I didn't think I was ready to move on but now it's time to move on to week 3 training which scares the crap out of me. It's 90 seconds of jogging, 90 seconds of walking, 3 MINUTES of jogging, 3 minutes of walking, repeated twice. That three minutes of running really scares me. The 90 seconds I'm doing now is tough. I know that I have to push myself in order to make progress but it's so far out of what I'm used to doing. I know that's a good thing, but still.

Another scary task is graduate school. I am so scared out of my mind. I really don't know if I'm ready. I feel like I just decided to start thinking about going back to already applying and starting to register for classes. It feels like it is all happening so fast. I kind of want to hold off until the spring semester so I can fully wrap my mind around what I'm about to get into. At the same time I feel like waiting may just be another excuse for why I can't do it. And if I don't do it now than I may never do it. Aaaagggghhh.... decisions, decisions. It's too much to think about right now.

We got some disappointing/annoying news this week. We've been waiting since the end of March for some kind of response from our doctor about what may have gone wrong with our IVF cycle. We knew not to expect a letter right away but when we hit the three month mark we started calling to find out if they were ever going to let us know what happened. So after several phone calls from both me and Joe we finally got a letter in the mail. I don't know what I was expecting but it was certainly more than we got. Basically, my cycle was perfect, there were no problems and they would follow the exact same protocol if we decided to try IVF with them again. Seriously?! That's it?! There has to be SOMETHING wrong! You can't keep saying that we're perfect and that we'll eventually get pregnant if we keep trying! NO! Five and a half years, a miscarriage and a chemical pregnancy have to mean SOMETHING is wrong. So, even though we love our doctor and love his nurses to death, Joe and I have decided that when we're ready to think about this again that we're going to seek a second opinion. I think it's time to start some genetic testing, maybe biopsy my uterus, just really look into anything and everything that could be preventing us from getting and staying pregnant.

Moving on...

We did have a really nice weekend. My dad and Joe re-screened our back porch this weekend. Our screen was old and ripped and a mess and now it looks awesome. While the boys were working my mom and I planted some inpatients in a couple of pots to put on my back porch. And we, of course, got our swimming time in today too. Oh, and I made a new crustless quiche this evening, turkey sausage and mushrooms. I'll let you know how it turned out. I also figured out how to make a low-carb mojito AND low carb tortilla chips. I'm on a roll baby! I'm working the low carb thing out!

Anyway, that's all for now. I hope you all have a great week. I'll keep you posted on how my new week of training goes!