Music therapy

I've been doing a lot of thinking. A LOT. Almost too much for my own good. My brain is being pulled in so many directions. Just when I think I've got things figured out, something else pops in and tears it all apart.

Music helps me. Listening to the words and letting my feelings out through the melodies is really like therapy for me. I can turn the music up really loud and scream the words and lose myself in the song. And it's funny how when you're really concentrating on an idea, you can make almost any song lyrics fit your situation.

I don't know if it is my state of mind right now but I've been IN LOVE with Flyleaf. The CD is like four years old but it has quickly become my new favorite. I can listen to it over and over again and be just in love as the first time I heard it. Joe and I are actually going to see them in concert tomorrow night in St. Augustine and I CAN NOT freaking wait!!! I'm so excited. Their music is definitely rock but the lead singer has the most amazing voice. She just sounds so haunted or almost in pain and you can't help but feel her pain too. And the lyrics to the songs are just amazing.

Another similar band that I'm loving is Paramore. They are also rock but more pop-ish I think. They have a great song called, "Miracle" that I can really relate to right now. The lyrics to the song just seem to fit where I am in my thoughts. So, in lieu of a full blog, I wanted to share the lyrics with you. Enjoy!

I've gone for too long living like I'm not alive
So I'm going to start over tonight
Beginning with you and I
When this memory fades
I'm gonna make sure it's replaced
With chances taken
Hope embraced
and have I told you?

I'm not going
cause I've been waiting for a miracle
And I'm not leaving
I won't let you
Let you give up on a miracle
When it might save you

We've learned to run from
Anything uncomfortable
We've tied our pain below and no one ever has to know
That inside we're broken
I try to patch things up again
To calm my tears and kill these fears
But have I told you, have I?

I'm not going
Cause I've been waiting for a miracle
And I'm not leaving
I won't let you
Let you give up on a miracle
When it might save you

It's not faith if, if you use your eyes
Oh why
We'll get it right this time (this time)
Let's leave this all behind
Oh why
We'll get it right this time
It's not faith if you're using your eyes
Oh why

I've gone for too long living like I'm not alive
So I'm going to start over tonight
Beginning with you and

I don't want to run from anything uncomfortable
I just want, no
I just need this pain to end right here

I'm not going
Cause I've been waiting for a miracle
And I'm not leaving
I won't let you
Let you give up on a miracle
Cause it might save you

Yeah, it might save you
Oh, it might save you

It's not faith if, if you use your eyes
If you use your eyes
If you use your eyes