Life with Evan

Yeah, I've been a little busy. This past week and a half has been ROUGH! Joe went back to work full time last Monday and on Wednesday I was diagnosed with mastitis. It was a rough week.

I had a clogged duct in my left breast that got progressively worse. By Wednesday afternoon I had a fever, body aches, and a huge lump on my gigantically swollen and very red breast. I went in to the doctor and got started on antibiotics. Once I got home I basically slept for 24 hours straight. Joe came home from work early and took care of Evan almost all by himself while I recuperated. I only got out of bed to pump and to take my medicine. It was awful. I felt like I'd been hit by a truck. And to make it worse, the only way to clear the clog was to continue pumping and massaging my breast. AWFUL. The pain was intense. I FINALLY cleared the clog on Sunday. The lump kept pulling up until it looked like I had a second nipple and finally when I was pumping it just exploded. It was so freaking nasty. And the stuff that came out was even nastier. I'm still pumping and trying to get the hole to close up but I am a million times better than I was. Now hopefully I'll be able to get my supply up again and get Evan back to only breast milk.

Other than the adventures with my boobs, things have been going pretty well. Evan is doing great. He had his 4 week doctor appointment yesterday and is up to 9.6 pounds and 22" long! My little piglet. He's little wiener is healing up really nicely and he's sometimes starting to smile at us when talk to him. I'm still trying to figure out his cries and when he wants what but I think we're getting better. I took him out to Target by myself today and he started melting down. I ended up carrying him while pushing the stroller and managing to pick up everything on my list. I was very impressed with myself. It was honestly my first, "I'm really a mom", moment. I guess I just felt capable for once. Most of the time I feel like a bumbling idiot. I know it'll take time to build up my confidence but you know how hard I am on myself!

As you can tell the blogs will most likely be fewer and farther between. I don't have as much time to play on the internet that I used to. Imagine that! When he sleeps I try to pump or wash bottles or clothes or just veg out for a few. But, I'll try to jump on whenever I can.