The end is near

Y'all know that I am ready for my baby to be here. After my near nervous breakdown yesterday when the doctor rescheduled my appointment to today, I REALLY knew it was time. I had a heaving, snotty, big sloppy teared breakdown yesterday when the nurse called to reschedule my appointment. Being off work and not having anything else to do but wait on baby's arrival has me anxious for ANY kind of excitement in my day. Even if that excitement is only from a weekly doctor appointment. I kind of scared myself with how disappointed I was. I mean, really. Kind of pathetic.

So I finally got my appointment this afternoon and have made a little progress since last week. I'm dilated between 2-3cm, my cervix is soft and the baby's head is all the way down. She said everything is ready to go, I just need some regular contractions. She did stretch me again and stripped my membranes today (OUCH!!!) so hopefully that will get things moving. But, as I sit here on my exercise ball, I'm having no cramps or contractions AT ALL so who knows. She said to walk and have sex and hopefully that will help get the contractions going.

But, y'all, I totally wimped out on the waiting for baby to be ready on his own. I did what I said I'd never do. I scheduled an induction date. Yup, if Evan doesn't come on his own I will be induced Monday morning. I was a little worried about the decision but after talking to the doctor and expressing my concerns about starting an induction before my body was ready she eased my fears and told me that essentially my body IS ready, I just need contractions. She said everything is favorable for a successful induction. So, I went for it. I feel better knowing there is an end in sight and that I will meet my baby boy early next week. Scary but exciting all at the same time.

Hopefully it won't come to that and I'll go into labor on my own sometime between now and Monday. I'm really anxious and excited about all the changes that are about to happen in our lives. I know this little baby is going to turn our lives upside down but I absofreakinglutely cannot wait!!