Kinda pregnant

So, I guess I'm "technically" pregnant. I've been getting positive home pregnancy tests since Friday night. So far I have seven positives. Yes, I am a little bit addicted to peeing on a stick. But, I also started cramping and spotting on Sunday. I had my first beta pregnancy test today and my number is at 47. Anything over 10 is considered pregnant but 47 isn't a very strong number. Add to that the spotting and the cramping and you can see why I'm very cautiously optimistic.

The nurse said, "congratulations", but also said she was concerned with the spotting. I am too, very much. Miraculously though, after a day of really heavy spotting and heavy cramps, it seems to have stopped now. The cramps stopped sometime this afternoon and the spotting is down to almost nothing. I really hope that is a good sign.

I have to go back for another blood test on Thursday. They will be looking for the numbers to increase by at least 66% but they would like them to double. That usually indicates the pregnancy is progressing. Until then I am to continue the oral medication as well as the progesterone suppositories.

This has been an extremely stressful and very overwhelming couple of days. To go from the high of a positive pregnancy test on Friday night to the terror of spotting on Sunday morning. I was shaking and crying while they were drawing my blood this morning just because I'm so terrified this won't work out in our favor. Luckily my favorite nurse was there and gave me several very comforting hugs. When I'm not at work I am pretty much glued to the couch. This is the first time I've been on the computer in 3 days. Joe has been a complete saint. He is waiting on me hand and foot. He even made my plate of tacos for me last night and brought it to me on the couch.

I know we aren't even close to being out of the woods and that waiting for my next blood results is going to be excruciating. We are trying so hard to stay as positive as possible while also realizing that this may not be our time. I will definitely post the beta results on Thursday, good or bad. But, in the mean time, we can use all the prayers/positive thoughts you guys can provide!