Distractions

I got a call today that I didn't want to hear.  Sorry, that sounded WAY to similar to a Don Henley song.  I hadn't heard anything from the doctor's office about my remaining embryos and if they'd made it to freeze.  So I called the nurse and she just called back with some crappy news.  NONE of my remaining embryos made it to freeze.  N-O-N-E!!!  She said they "disintegrated".  Definitely not the picture I want in my head right now.  

I just can't believe that out of 19 eggs and 10 good embryos that we only got TWO good ones. Hopefully, they are good ones.  Hopefully they didn't crap out as soon as they hit my poor, bitter uterus.  I know that I shouldn't be focusing on the bad here.  I know I should be happy that we transferred two excellent embryos and that they are hopefully growing and thriving inside me but FUCK!  Now there is NOTHING to fall back on if this doesn't work.  I just want to cry.  

But, in hopes that I can somehow distract myself from the gloom and doom that is sure to set in at any moment, I have compiled another list of raves for you.  It is smaller than the last couple but I hope you find it helpful nonetheless.  Here it goes.

Maybelline Stiletto Mascara- I don't know how many of you know about my quest for a good mascara.  It has taken me through the aisles of Target, Wal-Mart, Ulta and Sephora.  I'm cheap, so I don't spring for the $20 a tube crap unless I am sure it'll make my lashes look like Bambi's.  No, not the stripper, the doe-eyed little woodland creature from the cartoon.  I have found my perfect match in this mascara.  It simultaneously lengthens and thickens my lashes and leaves little to no clumps behind.  At $7-ish per tube it is WELL worth it!

Betty Crocker Warm Delights Minis- Have you ever wished to be 3 minutes from delicious chocolate cake?  Well wish no more.  I have found the promise land of cake!  Seriously, these things are easier than you'd imagine.  Add a tablespoon of water, stir, squeeze on the flavored gel, heat in microwave, and enjoy.  Also, the minis only clock in at 150 calories so you can indulge without too much guilt.  So far I've tried the Molten Chocolate Cake and the Chocolate Raspberry Decadence and they have both been REALLY good.  I highly recommend them to all the cake fans out there.  

St. Ives Mineral Therapy Lotion- Does your skin turn lizard like in the winter?  If you answered yes, this lotion is for you!  This lotion is one of the thickest I've ever used but rubs in so well you'd never know it.  It is not greasy and has a very subtle scent, not perfumey at all.  In the couple of weeks I've been using it, it has also made the skin on my chest appear firmer and less wrinkly!  Plus, St. Ives does not test their products on animals, which is a HUGE bonus in my book.  

Twilight- I know, I know, I am WAY behind the crowd jumping on this bandwagon.  But, since I'm not a tween who shops at Hot Topic, I didn't feel the need to get caught up in the Twilight hype.  But, once my normal friends started reading and loving the books, I decided to give it a try.  I just finished the first book today and I really liked it.  It was a classic love story, with some vampires thrown in for fun.  Honestly though, one of the best books I've read.  I saw the movie too, actually before I read the book, and I really liked that also.  I wish I would've waited until after I read the book to see the movie but once I really got into the book it didn't matter anymore.  I am definitely looking forward to reading New Moon before the movie comes out this fall.  

Cheez-It 100 Calorie Extra Cheddar Party Mix- I've tried almost every one of the 100 calorie packs on the shelf.  Normally they just don't hit the spot and I have to eat 5 packs to be satisfied, which kind of defeats the purpose.  This snack pack is the exception.  It has so much crunchy, cheesy, delicious flavor that one pack is really satisfying.  I can't promise that you won't want to lick the inside of the package to make sure you get all the cheesy goodness but I can promise that it will cure your mid-afternoon chip cravings.  

Double Stuf Oreos- Ok, I get that these have been around for FOREVER but, being that I threaten Joe with divorce if he brings them home from the store, they are a rarity in my house.  But, since I've been extra hormonal lately, I've let the Oreos creep back into my pantry.  I had forgotten the deliciousness that is a Double Stuf Oreo.  It is like heaven in a 2-inch cookie.  The are so crunchy and chocolaty and then creamy and sweet.  A stack of cookies and a glass of milk and I have found my happy place.  I know that they are around a trillion calories and full of saturated fat but can you really put a price on something so good?

En Vogue- Another blast from the past but I have been playing on iTunes lately and have rediscovered my love for the all girl group.  In sixth grade I used to play their CD in my bedroom and do dance routines in front of the mirror.  I downloaded the best of En Vogue and, if I wasn't on bed rest, I'd be busting out all those old dance moves again.  A little Hold On and Never Gonna Get It and I'm right back in my old pink bedroom with my button fly, fold over waist, rolled up jean shorts dancing in front of the mirror.  It is always fun to reconnect with some good stuff from the past.  

So there is my new list.  I know it is heavy on the snacks this time but my life has been heavy on the snacks lately.  I'm an emotional eater, if you haven't noticed.  I have started on another book and I plan to use it to keep myself occupied over the next couple of days.  I also go back to work tomorrow so that should be a good distraction from the goings-on in my uterus.  I hope you all enjoy my new list.  Talk to you soon.