Wednesday, December 9, 2009

With one beat of your heart, our lives will never be the same

We have a heartbeat! The ultrasound was a pretty surreal experience. I was so nervous I was shaking. I held my breath when the image popped up on the screen because I couldn't really see anything at first. Then she zoomed in and there it was, a tiny flicker coming from the middle of a little white blob. I burst into tears and laughter, so excited that my baby was okay. Then the tech let us hear the heartbeat and I cried even more.

Everything looks exactly how it should. The heart was beating at 129 beats per minute and the baby is measuring 6 weeks 4 days. That's exactly a week behind where I thought I was. It's a little disappointing to go back a week but as long as things are going okay in there, I'm fine with it.

There was one thing on the ultrasound that shouldn't have been there. An extra sack, empty. The tech said that it may have originally started as a twin pregnancy but the twin didn't develop. That may have been why my HCG numbers were so high and why I thought I was further along than I really am. She said that it's fine and that it will most likely just reabsorb and won't affect this pregnancy at all. It's kind of crazy to think that, even for a brief moment, I may have been pregnant with twins. Eeek!

It still seems so unreal. Even when I was watching the ultrasound screen, it didn't seem like it was me we were looking at. I thought that seeing the heartbeat would automatically put me at ease that everything was going to be okay and it has, a little, but I'm still so worried. I don't know if it's the maternal instinct kicking in where I'm going to always worry about my child and want to make sure he/she is okay. It's just knowing that I have a little heart beating inside of me and I want to do everything in my power to keep it safe and happy.

I've attached the two pictures they gave us at the ultrasound today. There's really not much to see at this point. Although, judging by the 3-D picture, I'd say I'm carrying a squirrel.


5 comments:

Becky said...

129...i'm saying girl. Pierce's heartbeat was 150 something and this one is 145, so I think i'm having another boy. They say girl's heartbeats are lower.

Tricia said...

They actually told me that the heart rate will increase over the next week or so. I'm sticking with boy for my guess. That's been both of our guesses since the beginning, and the Chinese gender chart says so. We'll see how right that is. I could care less either way.

Lindsey said...

Peyton held up her baby doll last night and said "Tricia's baby". I asked her if it was a boy or girl and she said girl and that Becky is having a boy. Well see if my child is right.

Emily said...

I am saying girl because of the dream I had. In the dream, we came down to visit you guys and a little girl, with blonde curls and Joe's cheeks and smile, came walking out of the purple bedroom. And it was the next night that I had the dream you were having twins! Weird!
I am so happy you got to see and hear the heartbeat! I remember the relief that I felt after hearing that.
Keep up the great work growing that squirrel!

Anonymous said...

BBAAAAHHH! The second pic SO looks like a squirrel! That is great! So nice that everything is progressing and you have a heartbeat! Congrats and hope you are having a great time in Key West!

Kristen
xoxo