Out of Ideas

Sorry for the lack of blogs lately. I just really don't have anything to talk about. Life is quite boring at the moment. Not that I mind, I'm actually quite enjoying the boring for a change. But, that leaves me with little to share with you here on the Internet.

Things are still pretty much still the same here. We are still undecided about our next step but we have started talking about ideas. I finally cried... hard. It was more of an anxiety-driven breakdown before Easter breakfast but I got myself out of bed and faced the world and I didn't die like I thought I would so I guess that's progress. I came across a quote by Reese Witherspoon that makes a lot of sense to me at the moment. I'm pretty sure she was describing her divorce but I think it translates well to what I'm going through. She said, "When people get in your face and say, 'This will pass,' you think, Are they crazy? I'm never gonna feel any better than I feel right this minute and nothing's ever gonna make sense again. And I still have moments where I'm like, Nothing's ever gonna make sense again." That's a pretty good summation of how I feel at the moment. I don't know if it'll ever make sense to me.

I did a little shopping over the weekend and it was nice. I got a bunch of stuff for our trip. I'm not quite sure how to put together my Vegas "fashion blog" that you all requested. I don't know if I should lay out the clothes and take pictures or if I should model them for you. I have lots of cute stuff to take with me. I got mostly casual things to walk around in during the day but got a couple of dresses too for nice dinners out. I booked my massage at Qua Spa in Caesar's Palace. It is a 75 minute Signature Stone Massage with Aromatherapy. I was planning on getting just the Stone Massage for 50 minutes, also the cheapest one they offered, but Joe talked me into booking the fancier one. It is quite a splurge, much more than I would ever normally spend on something so indulgent and selfish, but I am trying to take the advice of one of my work friends. He says I need to live by the L'Oreal philosophy of life, "I'm worth it". So, I'm trying to see things that way.

Other than the shopping trip I haven't been doing much. I prefer to spend my days in the safe little cocoon of my home, curled up on the couch with a book. I just finished re-reading Twilight. I know I keep saying it but I love the Twilight series! Even after reading it a second time I feel like I still need more. I'm going to continue to re-read the other 3 books in the series as well. I just hope I can hold off long enough so I'll have at least one book to take with me for the five hour flight to Vegas.

Anyway, I guess that's all for now. I'll keep you posted if anything interesting happens in the next few days but I wouldn't count on it.